Love & Exercise

I have been really horrible these past several months in regards to working out and eating healthy. I haven't gained much weight back, but I've felt like crap. I'd somehow lost my motivation. I knew I still had a ways to go before my body would look how I wanted it to...but I couldn't get myself to the gym. It had become more of a mental battle rather than a physical one. 

So, Monday evening I sat down and wrote out some goals. I figured a good way to keep myself accountable was to write it out here as well, for my two readers ;) 

Current weight: 137 (depending on the day) 

Goal weight by my birthday (Sept 13): 130 

For these four weeks I will be cutting out soda, sweets and fast food as well. I have to say I have rocked my first two days, in and out of the gym!! It feels so good to be back working towards a better, healthier me. :) After the first four weeks I will set new goals. Baby steps are important. I can't wait to see what results I have!! So if you are reading this, help keep me accountable!!!! 

To update on the romance in my life, or lack there of, I went out on a date with the 22 year old dad. We had a lot of fun, but in the end, I don't see us as a good fit. So I had to tell him we can how full still be friends. The other guy from work has been talking to me regularly until the past few days, so who knows. I'm not sure if we are a good match either? 

Now the one I'm really interested in, the oil field guy, we've talked here and there for the last two weeks and he was supposed to come home yesterday, but I haven't heard from him yet. I'm very interested in him and we have a lot in common, I'm just trying not to get my hopes up. I don't want to be disappointed again. So I'm just going to let it ride and see what happens... 

Work is...work still. Everyone is stressed and we are all trying to fix it. Changes are still being made and I'm hoping to receive more duties. Time will tell... Tuesday was my one year anniversary there, though. It's hard to believe it's been that long. Time sure flies!! 

I read an article the other day that really struck a chord with me, but I will save that for another blog, this one is already random enough!!

Back In The Saddle

These last few weeks have been interesting. I have moved past the last asshole and am myself again. I took the time I needed to be sad and angry, but I'm over. I'm moving on. Someone will appreciate me one day... 

Last week I rejoined a dating website. I used to be on this site religiously. I used to get so worked up about guys messaging me, guys responding and searching through the endless profiles. This time I have a different approach and a different mindset about it all. I'm letting them come to me, and the few I may contact first, I'm not going to be anxiously waiting for their reply. I feel so much more relaxed about everything. I'm definitely still not ok with being single, but I'm trying to enjoy it. 

I now have one guy I've been messaging...and now texting from the dating site. I've been pretty relaxed about it. He is in the oil field and is very busy. He is very much "my type". Then there are two guys from my parttime job that have been talking to me since Saturday. One of which I am very attracted to.. The only thing I'm worried about is the fact that he's 4 years younger and has a 2 year old daughter. He also has quite the past. He seems to be saying all the right things and I'm very much looking forward to seeing him again this weekend, but I'm keeping my guard up. 

This past week has been an ego boost to say the least! 

Work is still ungodly stressful. We are short staffed and there are certain people who don't know what the hell they are doing and it makes it so much harder on everyone. I love my coworkers dearly, but I'm over working in the medical field. I'm tired of rude, sick patients who yell at me for no reason. I'm just tired...

On a more uplifting note, I get to see my nephew in 2 1/2 weeks!! I haven't seen him since June and he's grown so much. I can't believe he's crawling!! I wish he could just stay little... 

A week from tomorrow I turn 26. Holy shit. It's so weird to think about. I have lived in Texas for a year now and it's so crazy to think about!! One of my best friends is coming to visit the week after my birthday. It will be SO good to see her. It's hard being away from your best friends, but I've discovered who really is my friend. My best friends and I talk almost daily like nothing has changed. That's true friendship. I'm so blessed. I know I get down on myself and get depressed about my life sometimes, but I really am thankful for where I'm at and those in my life. 

I can't wait to see what this next year brings!